Chapter 465 Shen Ting, I’m not worthy!
Chapter 465 Shen Ting, I’m not worthy!
"Yiming, Chi Yiming, you scared me."
Shen Ting was so panicked that she didn't know what to do.
The light in the bedroom was bright, but Chi Yiming sat on the ground like a soulless puppet, his eyes blank and lifeless.
Shen Ting sat next to Chi Yiming. She tried to calm herself down, held Chi Yiming's hand and placed it on her chest. She lowered her head and kissed his hand lightly and tenderly.
"Yiming, you still have me. Please don't scare me, okay? Yiming, I'm so scared. I'm really scared. I'm afraid you'll leave me, afraid you won't want me. We've been looking for each other for so long, and we're finally together, right?"
"Yiming, you won't be so cruel as to abandon me, right? You know I can't live without you."
Shen Ting tried hard to make her voice sound gentle, but no matter how hard she tried, her voice was still choked with sobs.
Imagine if it were her, she would not be able to accept this way of being born, and she would also hate herself.
"Sister Ting, I'm not worthy!"
Chi Yiming closed his eyes, and two lines of tears flowed from them.
"This is not your fault at all. What did you do wrong? Did you do anything?"
Finally he was willing to speak, Shen Ting breathed a sigh of relief.
She hugged Chi Yiming, held him in her arms, let Chi Yiming rest his head in her arms, touched Chi Yiming's hair with her other hand, and then patted Chi Yiming gently, again and again, like coaxing a child.
"Yiming, we can't choose our birth. All we can choose is our future life, a life that belongs to both of us. You said you would accompany me to the Grand Slam, you can't break your promise."
"I'm sorry, Sister Ting. I'm fine now. Go downstairs to see Grandpa and Mom and Dad. Explain to them and don't let them worry."
Chi Yiming's eyes regained clarity, as if he was not the one who was dazed and soulless and wanted to die just now.
"Are you really okay?"
Shen Ting always felt a little uneasy.
"It's really okay. Like you said, I couldn't choose how they gave birth to me. I don't know whether that woman is dead or alive now. Maybe she's dead! After all, if you think about it carefully, after what happened, death would be a relief for her."
Chi Yiming took a deep breath and exhaled: "It's over, Sister Ting, I really only have you from now on. The Chi family...they, I may not want to see them for the time being."
Unable to overcome the hurdle in his heart, he was afraid that he would never be able to look the two people in front of him in the face in his entire life.
Why should he know and hear it?
Couldn't I just keep this a secret forever? Couldn't I just let this rot in my stomach forever, turning it into a handful of ashes and burying it in the ground?
"Sister Ting, don't let them worry. I'll wait for you upstairs."
Chi Yiming patted Shen Ting on the back and urged her on.
“It’s safe!!”
He smiled.
Shen Ting stood up, Chi Yiming held her hand and walked to the bed and sat down. Shen Ting stretched out her hands and ravaged Chi Yiming's face, pinching and pinching it, and said fiercely: "I will be back soon, wait for your sister to come back to pamper you and love you."
"Sister Ting, this is your home."
Don't dare to make too much noise.
"I'm alone on the third floor, and my parents and grandpa live on the first floor so they can't hear me. So you better be good and listen, okay?"
Shen Ting was worried, so she locked all the windows and took away all the sharp objects in the house, even her cosmetic glass bottles.
Not to mention those eyebrow trimmers, small scissors, and fruit knives.
Ah, the bathroom door, she locked it too, and there was a mirror inside.
The door to the changing room was also locked.
She had played the role of a world-weary person before and knew what could be life-threatening. She stood in the bedroom and looked around until she felt it was safe, then she breathed a sigh of relief and left and went downstairs.
But why is my heart still uneasy?
I was so panicked.
There's nothing left to kill myself with, right? Probably... nothing left.
Shen Ting thought that she should go downstairs quickly to briefly explain the situation, and then go back to find Chi Yiming immediately.
Now she can only feel at ease if she keeps someone under her nose.
Shen Ting stood at the corner of the stairs, straightened her clothes, and combed her slightly messy hair. She closed her eyes, took a few deep breaths to calm herself down, and walked downstairs after thinking about her words.
"Mom, Dad, where's Grandpa?"
Shen Ting was looking for Mr. Shen.
"Your grandpa is old. He needs to rest when he's tired, otherwise he won't be able to sleep at night."
Father Shen spoke.
He picked up the cup in front of him and took a sip of water, then put the cup down and motioned Shen Ting to come and sit down.
"Don't think too much about it. This is what happens when you get older. You'll understand when you get older."
Fearing that his daughter would make a wrong analysis, Mr. Shen gave another explanation.
A day of worry from an old father.
I am busy at work during the day, busy at home at night, and busy coaxing my wife before going to bed.
When others reach his age, they should be taking care of their grandchildren and great-grandchildren, but what about him?
I dare not say anything, I dare not say anything. I have resigned from the company, but it seems that I have not resigned completely.
"Tingting, why did you come down by yourself? Is Yiming okay?"
Mrs. Shen still likes the little puppy and his sister very much.
What's more, Chi Yiming is good-looking, and Lang Ke Nai is kind and loyal to their daughter. His heart and eyes are full of Shen Ting, which is enough.
The Shen family really doesn't care about status or anything like that.
They would not do anything like sacrificing their daughter's happiness by having her enter a business marriage.
How many business marriages are happy?
In the end, the two became a couple of enemies, and the child was the one who suffered.
"Mom and Dad, I was just about to tell you about this. This is what happened."
This story begins yesterday.
Shen Ting slowly began to tell the story of what happened yesterday when she and Chi Yiming returned to the Chi family. Chi Qinghai and Zhou Hezhi had a big fight, and Zhou Hezhi wiped out the Zhou family in Zhejiang City without anyone helping.
As for Zhou Zirui, he was so frightened that he lost all his dignity. He lay on the ground like a puddle of yellow water and kept kowtowing to Zhou Hezhi and Chi Yiming, begging them to let him go.
But who is Zhou Hezhi?
If he lets Zhou Zirui go at this time, who will let him go?
Zhou Zirui was dragged out by the bodyguards like a dead dog.
Originally, there would be nothing wrong with this. They also planned to stay at the Chi family for a few days and play with the cats and dogs that Grandpa Chi raised for Ji Youran.
But who knew that tonight, when Chi Yiming and she went upstairs to plead for Zhou Hezhi, they heard a quarrel in the bedroom.
Chi Yiming was worried that Chi Qinghai would attack Zhou Hezhi, so he tried to open the door in a hurry. However, he didn't expect to hear Zhou Hezhi say, "Chi Qinghai, do you have a heart? I've loved you for so many years, don't you really know?"
"Chi Yiming is your son, your biological son. Do I treat him any differently than my own biological son? I've already said that as long as you want, as long as you're willing, I'll send him to the Zhou family right away, but you don't agree!"
"Ah." Shen Ting sighed softly. Her mouth was dry from talking, so she picked up the cup and drank some water before continuing, "So... a woman drugged Chi Qinghai and gave birth to Chi Yiming."
"Chi Qinghai and Zhou Hezhi didn't like him very much, so they kept him on his own, but Chi Yiming was so naive that he thought it was the love his two fathers had for him."
The child never thought that Chi Qinghai and Zhou Hezhi would dislike him, and even when he grew up, they didn't want him to be around and threw him out to fend for himself.
Chi Yiming, who knew the truth, couldn't accept it at all.
Shen Ting only said half of the words and left the other half unsaid.
If that's the case, why does Chi Yiming feel that his blood is dirty?
Zhou Hezhi was very angry at that time. He and Chi Qinghai locked the woman in the basement and tortured her day and night. Sometimes it was Zhou Hezhi, and sometimes it was Chi Qinghai holding the woman in front, while Zhou Hezhi held Chi Qinghai from behind.
A month later, the woman became pregnant with Chi Yiming. They were afraid that the woman would commit suicide, so they tried every possible means. Nine months later, Chi Yiming was born and a DNA test was done to confirm his surname.
After being raised outside for a few years, he was finally brought back to the Chi family under the name of adoption.
No one had any doubt about this matter. Everyone knew that Chi Qinghai and Zhou Hezhi loved each other very much. They loved each other so much that no one else could get in between them, let alone a woman.
Shen Ting was with Chi Yiming at the time, listening to the quarrel between the two people inside.
Zhou Hezhi was angry and helpless: "Chi Qinghai, do you have a heart? I love you with my life, what about you?"
"There's still a gap between you and me because of what happened back then. Every time I touch you, I have to coax you for a long time, and sometimes you even drug yourself."
"Chi Qinghai, who do you think I am?"
"Yes, I was wrong about what happened back then. I was impulsive and forced you to be with her. I touched her in front of you."
"I'm a bastard. You hit me, scolded me, and stabbed me with a knife. I accepted it all."
"But she ended up getting pregnant and you wanted to keep the child. You said I touched her the most and that the child might be mine, but I know better than anyone who the child is."
"I never got it in, not once."
"Chi Qinghai, I love you. I left you descendants who are related by blood, but what about you?"
"Ever since Yiming was born, ever since you knew Chi Yiming was your son, you've been wary of me like a thief, afraid that I would hurt him."
"Yes, I don't deny that your worries are correct. If Yiming hadn't looked more and more like you, I really wouldn't be able to keep him."
"But do I really have no feelings for Yiming at all?"
Zhou Hezhi roared in grief and pain, like a seriously injured beast making its last desperate struggle.
"He's called me dad for so many years. Even if my heart is made of stone, it must be warmed by this little thing!"
"Why don't you believe me? Why do you think I would give the Chi family to Zhou Zirui?"
"Tell me, Chi Qinghai, tell me, what has happened between us all these years?"
Chi Qinghai didn't want to think about that unbearable past. He opened Zhou Hezhi's hand and said, "Stop talking. I don't want to hear it."
"Don't you want to listen? Chi Qinghai, I told you that if there's a problem, we'll solve it. The two of us are almost over a hundred years old together, and we still have a long way to go. Do you really want to be with me with something hidden in your heart for the rest of your life?"
"We can't let go of each other, can we?"
"You tried it, I tried it, and I failed, didn't I?"
"We are destined to never be apart in this life."
Chi Qinghai closed his eyes and shed tears silently. Seeing him crying, Zhou Hezhi was at a loss.
Over the years, neither of them has mentioned this matter, because they know that it is a minefield and a taboo that cannot be touched or mentioned, otherwise problems will arise.
But now a problem has arisen, and Zhou Hezhi feels confused.
"Qinghai, I'm sorry, it's my fault. I shouldn't have been so mean to you."
In the end, Zhou Hezhi was the first to compromise.
He hugged Chi Qinghai, lowered his head and whispered in his ear: "I don't know why you misunderstood."
"You treat Zhou Zirui better than Yiming. The Zhou family even said they would send Zhou Zirui over to us to raise him under their name."
Chi Qinghai could not forget how Zhou Hezhi teased Zhou Zirui at that time.
Zhou Hezhi had never treated Chi Yiming like this before.
Although Chi Yiming's birth method was not very good, Chi Yiming was his son, his only son. It was impossible for him not to love him and it was impossible for him not to really like him.
He just didn't dare and couldn't pamper Chi Yiming in front of Zhou Hezhi. He was afraid that Zhou Hezhi really couldn't tolerate Chi Yiming.
So when Chi Qinghai saw Zhou Hezhi doting on Zhou Zirui, he felt very uncomfortable.
Zhou Hezhi: “…”
It's a bit unfair.
"You said Zhou Zirui looks like me and that seeing him reminds me of my childhood, so you like him!!"
Because Chi Qinghai said with a smile that he liked Zirui, he looked at Zhou Zirui differently.
After all, this little thing made his Qinghai laugh and made him happy.
Chi Qinghai looked bewildered: "Did I say that?"
He has no memory of it at all.
"I said that while drinking."
"So you believe it too?"
"Isn't it said that truth comes out when drunk?"
"Don't you know what kind of drinking I am?"
So just because of a forgotten sentence, two people misunderstood each other for so long.
After that, the quarrel inside ended and some ambiguous sounds were heard.
Chi Qinghai was still thinking about Chi Yiming and Shen Ting, but Zhou Hezhi said that Chi Yiming was sensible and would not come to find them since he had a girlfriend. Seeing that they had not gone downstairs, he should have guessed what they were doing in the bedroom.
But Zhou Hezhi guessed wrong. Chi Yiming was still standing outside the door. He wanted to escape, but his feet felt like they were filled with lead and he couldn't move.
When he heard that there was no more noise inside and some rustling sounds, he realized what he was doing.
He was listening to his father and daddy talking in the corner, his mind was in a mess and he couldn't accept it at all. He ran downstairs in embarrassment and ran out of the Chi family as if escaping.
Shen Ting followed him all the time. If Shen Ting hadn't brought him back to the Shen family, Chi Yiming would have died long ago. By the time he was found, he would probably be dead.
Shen Ting was still frightened and looked upstairs from time to time. There were no dangerous items inside, so Chi Yiming should be fine.
Where is Chi Yiming?
He stood in front of the French window and looked at the moonlight outside.
The moonlight is beautiful, but he doesn't deserve it.
Jump from here?
She might not die on the third floor, but it would not be good if she died at the Shen family's house. The Shen family would have to move to another house, and Shen Ting would have nightmares at night.
then what should we do?
After much thought, Chi Yiming decided to lie in the bathtub and cut his wrists.
He will not die immediately, and the dirty blood in his body can be drained out, so when Shen Ting comes back, he can be sent to the hospital as soon as possible.
After Jin Sinan rescued him, he jumped out of the hospital.
The one who is disgusted is Jin Sinan, not the Shen family.
Although it was a bit unfair, it was the best way to die he could think of at the moment.
Jin Sinan: “…”
You are really a good brother to me. Thank you for thinking of me like this when you died and for not forgetting to trick me to death.
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