webnovelfull Chapter 444 She also has her own experience
Chapter 444 She also has her own experience
Shen Sangning's words made Chen Mo silent again.
After a long time, Chen Mo raised his head, his eyes full of complicated emotions. He took a deep breath and said slowly: "For Yueyue, I...I don't know what to say."
Chen Mo took out another cigarette from the cigarette box and lit it. "I have too many emotions intertwined in my heart."
"I can't accept it. Why did fate play such a trick on us, leaving us with no chance to be together. I don't understand why she suddenly disappeared without even saying hello."
"I am helpless. I have lost so much in these fifteen years in prison. I am out of touch with the outside world. Even if she is still waiting for me, what can I give her?"
"I hate myself. I hate myself back then for not being able to protect her, not being able to give her a stable life..."
"When I was in prison, I also hoped that she would not wait for me. During these fifteen years, she should pursue her own happiness and should not be dragged down by a tainted person like me."
"But the thought that she might have married someone else and started a new life makes my heart ache like a needle."
"Maybe she encountered some unsolvable difficulties, maybe her family forced her to leave me, maybe... I dare not think about it anymore. But no matter what, I hope she is safe and happy."
"I just want to see her again, ask her how she is doing... whether she is happy, and wish her well like an old friend..." Chen Mo's voice was a little choked, and the hand holding the cigarette trembled slightly, and the ashes fell.
He took a long puff of his cigarette, and the smoke blurred his face. "It's really contradictory. I want to see him, but I don't dare to."
"I'm afraid there's another man standing next to her, or holding a child."
Chen Mo put out the cigarette, covered his face with his hands, and spoke from between his fingers: "I often wonder, if I could have been stronger, if I had enough money so that she wouldn't have to go to that private room, if... Unfortunately, there is no if."
He put his hand down, his face full of pain and vicissitudes: "Over the years, I have seen her countless times in my dreams. Every time I woke up and faced the cold cell walls, the loneliness and despair almost swallowed me up."
Chen Mo smiled bitterly: "Now that I'm out, I feel like a ghost, wandering in this familiar yet strange world. I don't know where to go, and I don't know how to continue living."
"Having said so much, I actually don't blame her..."
"How many fifteen years are there in a lifetime? I was 20 when I went in, and she was 20 too! It was the time of youth and beauty..."
"Besides, because of my case, the money she saved was also drained away. She also stayed with me for five years..."
"That's enough... That's enough."
"The last time I saw her was on her birthday. She made a wish in front of me."
"The wish is...I hope I can get out soon."
In the live broadcast room, the comments kept scrolling, and many people expressed their opinions on Chen Mo's experience.
[Put yourself in their shoes. No one can stand seeing their girlfriend being violated. If you just watch, are you still a man? ]
[Just because of one sentence in an interview, there is no chance of commutation of sentence. So...haha.]
[Fifteen years? Doesn't that even count as excessive self-defense? Was it manslaughter?]
[Yueyue's behavior is somewhat disappointing. Even if you explained the matter clearly to her, even if you were married and told her, it would be understandable...]
[Yueyue also experienced a huge psychological trauma from this incident! The pressure she endured may be even greater! ]
Shen Sangning glanced at the comments and said calmly, "No one can completely empathize with you, but I can roughly understand your thoughts and feelings."
"When you see your girlfriend being violated, your instinctive reaction is to protect her. This impulse comes from your deep love and sense of responsibility for your girlfriend. In such an urgent and extreme situation, it may be difficult to fully control the intensity of your behavior, resulting in excessive defense."
"There are problems with the judicial authorities' decision. They are serious problems."
"I am broadcasting live, and many viewers, media and various departments are watching it now."
"I believe it won't be long before someone gives you justice."
"Although I can't compensate you for your youth, I will give you some compensation financially."
"During the 15 years you were in prison, you might have felt a little regret for your impulsiveness, but you were more likely to be concerned about your girlfriend."
"When your girlfriend disappears, you must be feeling extremely complicated. It's inevitable that you will feel extremely lost and painful."
At this point, Shen Sangning paused and said, "Based on your understanding of Yueyue, would she suddenly disappear?"
Chen Mo was stunned. This was also the question that had been puzzling him!
He had made it very clear to Yueyue that she didn't have to wait for him.
If he really gets a new boyfriend one day, he will bless Yueyue.
Yueyue left without saying goodbye for no reason.
This is also what he is most worried about and what he is most reluctant to think about.
If Yueyue is happy at this moment, he can choose not to disturb her.
The reason why he came to Lingyun Temple and wanted to find Yueyue was because he was afraid... afraid that something might have happened to Yueyue.
"Master Shen... Master Shen, I... I don't know." Chen Mo's face turned pale instantly: "Did something happen to her?"
Shen Sangning nodded: "You must have suffered a lot during your fifteen years in prison. You also lost your freedom."
"Yueyue has experienced a lot in the past fifteen years, especially in the last ten years."
"Since she chose not to see you or contact you, she must have her own thoughts and reasons."
"I can help you try to find her and make contact, but as for her final decision, whether to meet her or not, I will not interfere."
Chen Mo clenched his hands tightly together, and inexplicably began to feel heartache, "Is she...she...not doing well?"
Shen Sangning did not answer this question, but chuckled: "If possible, you can ask her yourself."
"Wait for me here for a while. I'll go see her."
"If she agrees to see you, I'll bring her straight here."
"Okay..." Chen Mo stood up, leaned forward slightly, and bowed deeply: "Master Shen... Thank you... Thank you..."
After standing up, his eyes were full of anticipation and anxiety, and his nervous mood made his breathing become rapid.
After Shen Sangning left, Chen Mo paced around in the same place, occasionally stopping to look outside the hall. His heart seemed to be tightly grasped by an invisible hand, and every second of waiting made him suffer.
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