Reborn back to college to have a love affair

Chapter 165 I can live without anyone including Xiao Shao, but I can’t live without you.

on the way back.

Cui Jinsong tried several times to talk to Xia Qing about some light-hearted topics, but Xia Qing always responded indifferently.

Cui Jinsong slowly shut up and stopped talking.

The car was eerily quiet.

When they arrived at their residence, Xia Qing unbuckled her seatbelt and turned to remind him, "Be careful on the way back. I'll go up first."

Cui Jinsong held her hand again. He didn't know what to say, but he had to say it.

"Xia Qing, what's wrong?" His eyes were gentle and his big hands were strong. Even though Xia Qing treated him coldly several times in the car, he did not get angry. Instead, he was tolerant and cared about what was wrong with her.

Did he also feel her emotions?

She originally wanted to calm down first, think things through, and then talk to him and decide what to do next.

However, although she said she would think it over before making a decision, she actually didn't want to continue this relationship anymore. She found it troublesome and a headache.

But Cui Jinsong, this gentle man, may be the last one among the three of them who understands the relationship between them?

He should know, and he has the right to know. Xia Qing doesn't like being kept in the dark or deceived, and she doesn't want him to suffer the same sadness she once did.

Tell him, she thought.

He is such a good person, he also has the right to know, he should not be passive in making decisions and wait for her decision passively.

Xia Qing let go of the hand that was holding the car door and sat up straight.

"Cui Jinsong, let me tell you something. I once had a love affair that was unforgettable, but you can guess the ending without me telling you. After all, I am with you now, but back then..." She glanced at him, then turned her head to look at the front of the car. Her eyes wandered through the glass to the food outside the window. She held her bag in her hand and slowly recounted the past.

......

Cui Jinsong listened quietly the entire time. She heard Xia Qing say, "Do you know why I had a bad impression of you? Because, because of one person, I hated an entire city, and I didn't have a good impression of anyone who came from that city."

"Later, you asked me to let go of my prejudice, but God played a big joke on me. With such a small chance, it happened to you, it happened to him, it happened to you all!"

"Cui Jinsong, I'm very confused"

"Cui Jinsong, I don't want such complicated feelings. I want to completely break off with the past, but when I'm with you, I can't avoid meeting you again and remembering you. I can't forget you even if I want to."

"Cui Jinsong, I just thought I'd calm down and talk to you, but that would be self-deception. I want to give up~"

"Sorry, it's my fault."

Xia Qing finished these words with difficulty.

Cui Jinsong didn't say anything. Xia Qing opened the car door, got out and walked home.

I had only taken two steps when I heard the sound of a car door, followed by the sound of running footsteps.

Xia Qing turned around.

Cui Jinsong came up and hugged her very tightly.

He said, "No, Xia Qing, it's not like that."

"Listen to me, it's not like that. I can solve your problem. Don't give up on me so quickly. Don't give up on our relationship."

He felt that outside was not a good place to have a conversation, so he carried Xia Qing home.

After opening the door, without even turning on the light, he held her in his arms and found a chair to sit down. She wanted to get up from his arms, but he wouldn't let her.

After a long while, Cui Jinsong said, "Xia Qing, put aside everything else and let me ask you, do you like me? Have you loved me in the past?"

Xia Qing didn't know what he wanted to say, but she answered honestly: "I like it, and I love it."

Cui Jinsong seemed to be relieved.

"I love you too, very much, more than you think."

"If you don't love me, if you want to give up on me and this relationship, then I won't say anything."

"But you love me, and I love you too. I won't allow you to give up. Why are you backing off like this? You've never been afraid of difficulties."

"Besides, the problems you mentioned can be solved. If you don't want to see him, then don't see him. We don't have to meet."

"It's fine if you want to break with the past, and I hope you can break with the past completely, but this doesn't conflict with you being with me."

"You can't give up on me because of him. I will be sad and upset. I don't want to be separated from you. I want to be with you forever and spend the rest of my life with you."

Xia Qing was moved by Cui Jinsong's confession. She slowly said, "Cui Jinsong, there are so many people in the world, you can find a better girl. Maybe without me, you will find a more suitable one." There are so many outstanding girls in the world, and no one can have the kind of relationship they have. She is too tired of such a relationship.

"No, in my heart there is no one better or more suitable than you." He only recognized her, and he would rather continue to be single without her.

"But the relationship is too complicated. I have a headache and am irritated."

"It's not complicated. To put it bluntly, you and Xiao Shao were ex-boyfriend and girlfriend, and now you're my lover. I just happen to know Xiao Shao and we just happen to be good friends. What's the big deal? We're not brothers, not even cousins. There's no ethics involved, so why would it be a mess? What's bothering you? Tell me."

"Cui Jinsong, he and I weren't just joking around. We were truly together. We held hands, kissed, and had intimate moments. How could you not mind? Every time you see him, you think of me, and when you see me, you might think of him too. Why torture yourself like this?"

"No, Xia Qing, listen to me, you are wasting your energy. Knowing your relationship, the discomfort I feel is only because of eating the wrong food, not because of disgust." Cui Jinsong felt sorry for her. He understood what she said. She was afraid that he would mind her past and her past relationship with Jiang Shao.

She did nothing wrong, from the beginning to the end.

All his retreats and giving up were because she thought he would mind her going over there, right?

It might be hypocritical to say that he didn't mind at all. Thinking that the person she once loved so much was not him, he only regretted that he didn't meet her when he was in his prime.

But he loved her, loved everything about her, loved her enough to accept all of her.

Xia Qing was still struggling: "But, I still... I still feel uncomfortable and uneasy. When I'm with you, I will remember some things I want to forget."

Cui Jinsong knew what the problem between him and her was, but the fact had already happened, and what they needed to do was accept it, not escape from it.

"Xia Qing, you may not believe what I said. But what I want to say is that this kind of thing depends a lot on a person's perspective and vision. There's nothing you can't see clearly. You'll understand once you reach this point."

"I still want to say that I love you and don't want to be separated from you. Xiao Shao is not a problem. If you don't want to see us, then don't see us. We don't have to force ourselves to forget the past. Give it some time, give me some time, and I will create more and better memories for you, enough for you to be indifferent to the pain of the past when you think of it again."

Xia Qing passed a long time.

"Cui Jinsong, does it have to be me? It has to be me?"

"Yes, it's you. From the beginning to now, it's more clearly you."

I can live without anyone including Xiao Shao, but I can't live without you.